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Belthazor sees the poster and twitches just a little.

Maia finishes hanging the last poster and sees Belthazor looking at it. "Nice huh?" Maia's voice is cold as she looks him up and down.

Belthazor winced a little at the sound of Maia's voice. Steeling himself, he turns to face her. "Nice, yeah. You, uh, seen her?" Not that he expects her to tell him if she has or not.

Maia does not look away. "No. Nobody has. Do you blame her?" Maia starts to walk away but stops and walks back over to him. "She really cared about you, you know."

He tenses a little. "So you've talked to her then? She told you what happened?"

Maia's eyebrow raised. "I didn't have to talk to her." Maia is watching Belthazors face now. "I saw it weeks ago."

"What exactly did you see then?" Belthzor moves closer to Maia, looming over her. "Did you see why? Did you see the reasons?"

Maia looks totally disgusted at him but does not allow herself to back up. She looks him in his eyes. "Is that how you comfort yourself, how you reason it when you cant sleep at night? Is that what you blame it on? The reasons behind it. Why don't you tell me what I saw, reason it out for me Belthazor. I'm not in love with you, so your 'reasoning' isn't going to hurt me like it hurt her."

He chuckles a little. "You have no idea, do you? You just want to brand me as evil and leave it as that. You have no idea what I think...or what I...feel. You just think I'm some sort of monster." He pauses. "Maybe you're right."

Maia laughs to match his and then she stops and glares at him. Maia stares into Belthazors eyes, she does not hesitate. "The Source."

Any humor, false or not, fades when Maia mentions the Source. He quickly looks around to make sure no one was watching, then put his hands on Maia's shoulders and pushs her against the wall, not roughly, but not exactly entirely nicely, either. "What do you know about the Source?" he hisses.

Maia pushes herself against his hands but he's got her pinned. "What makes you think I am going to tell you anything more." Maia says in a cold tone glaring up at him.

"And what makes you think you know anything but a name?" he sneers. "If you knew about the Source, you'd be a lot more afraid

Maia pushes against him "Let me go" she hisses. "Your not in a position to judge what I know."

He takes a step back and releases her. "And you're not in a position to judge what I am," he shoots back. "You don't know anything about me."

Maia checks him up and down rubbing her shoulder. "I know about you. I've seen you and whats more, I'm going to make sure Phoebe does to. You hurt her once, I won't let you do it again."

"I thought you already told her all about me," Belthazor says darkly. "What else is there to tell her? What is it that you think you know? I don't believe you."

Maia smirks. "What part of I don't have to tell you anything do you not understand you disgusting demon." Maia turns away. "A disgusting demon who is brother to a thorn."

"Well then, if you know about the Source, and you know about the Brotherhood, then you know just what happens to annoying little witches who get in our way," he says dangerously. "If you know what I am and what I can do, then why are you standing here alone with me?"

Maia smiles. "Because I am not a witch and I am not afraid of you. Why do you stare at Phoebe's pictures on the poster like you actually care?"

Her question catches him off guard. "How do you know I don't?" he says.

Maia leans forward "Because if you loved her, you'd rather die yourself then cause her an ounce of pain. Thats how I know." Maia looks disgusted at Belthazor.

He flinches. The girl has no idea just how much pain Phoebe's pain is causing him. He has not been able to sleep since she vanished. He can't concentrate on anything because thoughts of her fill his mind. Would seeing Phoebe make the pain go away or just make it grow? He has no idea, but is driven by the desperate need to touch her again. He didn't want to want her. But he did.

"Love hurts, isn't that what they say?" he says, finally finding his voice, trying to conceal the storm of emotions he's feeling. "Or maybe I didn't want to do it. Ever consider that?"

Maia's eyes soften for a moment at his last words but harden again when she thinks of Phoebe and badly her friend was hurting. "Then why Belthazor. If you love her like she says you did. Why?" Maia leans against the wall watching his face, for a fleeting moment she feels pity for him.

He looks away. "I didn't have a choice. You wouldn't understand."

"No I guess I wouldn't understand because I'd never hurt someone that I loved the way you hurt her." Maia staring at him, shaking her head in pity. "No matter how much it was for their own good. Next time why don't you just try talking to the person instead of making sure they catch you in bed with someone else. Even if you didn't have a choice, you could have done it some other way then breaking her heart like that." Maia starts to put a comforting hand out to touch Belthazor but she pulls it back immediately.

"What if talking to her would've hurt her more?" Belthazor says, remembering the dream he'd had in the Myth and Magic class. If he had told Phoebe what he was and she tried to be with him, it would destroy her.

"So you took it upon yourself to destroy the one thing in her life she loved and trusted besides her sisters. You destroyed her faith in you." Maia sighs "I do pity you for such a stupid decision no matter what good you think came of it, you destroyed her. At least if you would have talked to her instead of letting her see you screwing someone else, she would have been hurt but not destroyed." Maia's eyes sting "Did you see her Belthazor? Did you see her heart break? Did her tears wet your face and shoulders? Or did you ration out that it was for the best for you not to see that." Maia looks disgusted now. "Did you enjoy the show you created or did you hide your face, perserve that small ounce of you that cared for her?"

"I didn't want to do it!" he snarls, shaking. "I did it for her own good. People break up all the time. She'll get over it. I'll get over it. She said we were soulmates, but there's no such thing."

Maia does not flinch at his yelling she merely looks annoyed. "Will you?" Maia watches him "I mean if you think you did the right thing then why snap at me and defend yourself?" Maia stands up from the wall and leans towards him "I'll tell you Mr. Demon, its because you know that you didn't."

"Well, it's too late to do anything about it now," he says, cursing himself for losing control. "She's hiding from me, and even when she does come back, she won't want to talk to me." He drops his gaze and mutters under his breath, "Probably better that way."

Maia is still very calm "Isn't that the point? Isn't that what you wanted?"

"Yeah," he says in a tight voice. "Yeah. That was the point." He didn't add out loud, And now I have to live with it.

Maia simply nodded. "Yeah, it was. The question is now though, Can you live with it? Because you don't really seem so sure it was the right thing to do in the harsh light of day."

"Like I said, not much of a choice," he says bitterly. "You know what I am. You know what she is. Not exactly Romeo and Juliet material...except maybe the part where everybody dies."

"Yeah that plays sucks." Maia sighed. "For what its worth, even though I think your a total asshole, if you were not what I know you are, I'd like you and want nothing but the best for you and Phoebe."

He closes his eyes. "Yeah, and, well, that's not going to happen, is it?" Right. Witch and demon. The only thing less likely was a demon and a whitelighter. He just has to find some way to get this out of his system and get over it.

Maia reaches out despite her misgivings about the future and puts a reassuring hand on Belthazors shoulder. "You really did it to protect her didn't you? Your not lying about that?"

"My life will destroy her," he says, not sure why he's making the admission. "She's safer away from me." He gave Maia a level look. "You know what as well as I. If I just told her what I was she would still believe in that soulmate stuff and think she could change me or something. That's why I had to do it the way I did."

Maia nods slowly and sadly. "And there is no hope. Its clear to me, there is no haze." Maia says that to herself more then to Belthazor. She looks up at Belthazor. "I hate when its clear."

"Yeah, no hope, pretty clear there," he agrees, but even as he's saying the words he's thinking, Maybe if I go ask Piper again...maybe she'll tell me where Phoebe is. He can't bring his heart to agree with his words.

Maia turns to go. "If it was hazy, I'd do everything I could to see Phoebe happy and she was happy with you." Maia starts walking away.

"Are you sure it's so clear?" he calls after her. "Is everything you see so right? You've never been wrong?"

Maia turns to look at Belthazor sadly.

"No, I've never been wrong." She sees Belthazors eyes. "However, sometimes what I see can change if the person changes their path. If they dont set the events into motion."

Change their path? Yeah, right. He was a demon. That wasn't ever going to change. It was stupid to hang on to any hope that things might work out with him and Phoebe. All dwelling on that would do was mess him up even more than it already was. And yet...he couldn't stop thinking about her. Could a demon go crazy? He was beginning to suspect he was.

"Guess it's pretty clear then," he finally says. "I don't see how things are gonna change." He gives the pictures of Phoebe on the wall a last look, then turns and starts to walk away.

Maia frowns at him as he walks away. Maia stands and looks at Phoebe's picture for a moment and then walks away. She needed some air, she had never had anything that even approached a civilized conversation with Belthazor before and her head was spinning. why cant it be hazy Maia closes her eyes for a moment and walks in the opposite direction of Belthazor.

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