Room 146: Grissom's Office

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Grissom sits in his office, preparing for his classes that evening. He's a bit tired, as he didn't get much sleep last night after Maia's prophecy, and still sore.



[OOC: Conversations with students are "confidential" until stated otherwise, or someone else busts in.]

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Maia stares at Grissom unsure of what to say, finally she setttles on the safest thing she can think of.

"so these, bushido's who kill themselves. You feel you fit that catagory only you've no friend to help you.?"

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"I'm telling you about my dream, Maia. You want to know so desperately. Do you think you could kill a man?"

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Maia looks at Grissom without falter. "Yes I could."

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"Me too. Could you kill yourself, if you did something that you could never excuse yourself for?"

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Maia thinks for a moment. "I won't. I see what I am going to do, so if I don't like the outcome, I change it. I would see if there were something I could not excuse myself for." Maia looks at him again. "Could you?"

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"Empty-handed I entered the world

Barefoot I leave it.

My coming, my going --

Two simple happenings

That got entangled."



"Yes."

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Maia nods feeling sorry suddenly for those who could not see like her. She resented it most of the time but in this moment she was happy she had that ability.

"Have you done something that is not excusable? or you fear that you will."

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"I did fear it; I do not anymore."

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Maia looks down at her hands. "Because of what I saw." Maia bites her lip "You do understand that your fuzzy right. Out of focus in that vision."

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"But she isn't there, and I am alive, and something happens to me, something major, something that would change things. That means... you know what that means."

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Maia stares at Grissom. "I can't see past the fuzz Mr. Grissom. She may be standing just on the other side of it."
Maia looks down.

((OOC: sorry for delay, MUN had to run yet again to store for dinner tonight. we're having our Rosh Hashanah dinner tonight. But I am back now we can continue))

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"No... no... Maia you don't understand. I kill her, in the dream. I am the man behind her.

I could never do that. But it haunts me... it's more than just a dream. I've seen it, when I am awake. But now I know, that I don't hurt her. Not physically. It's definitive.

Is that what you wanted to hear, Maia? There, there it is. I slit her throat open, and then I am face-to-face with myself. I have to kill myself twice, and I do. And I don't feel it. All I can see is blood. Is that what you want to see at night?"

Grissom falls silent, and sinks back down into his chair.

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Maia sits back stunned, her heart is pounding almost out of her chest. Maia swallows hard "I- I didn't want to assume it was you that did it, in the dream. Now I know for sure." Maia covers her face with her hands sitting quietly now slightly trembling. Finally after a few minutes she drops her hands down. "No, I don't want to see her blood at night. I saw it last night and could not sleep. She was screaming all night." Maia shuts her eyes and then tears start to fall. "I can't push them away anymore, the images, she's there now. I promised her-" Maia cuts off. "She's there now."

((OOC: arent you sweet thank you))

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"I... I've said too much. I apologize. I shouldn't have snapped like that. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, excuse me for a moment."

Grissom shuffles out the front door, but returns a few moments later. He grabs a tissue and leaves it on the desk in front of Maia, careful not to come to close to her.

"You must be afraid of me now, I don't know how to fix that."

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Maia looks up at Grissom her eyes showing her real age. "No, I'm not afraid of you." Maia takes a tissue and dabs at her eyes. "You've done nothing to make me afraid of you. It was a dream." Maia shudders "Just a dream" she whispers to reassure herself that she was safe sitting in the office with Grissom.

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"We had a case once, the woman had her throat cut by an older man she had a relationship with and then rejected... the dreams started after that. She looked so much like Sara...

But the accident you see, something must happen to me. If I go fuzzy. And if I am still alive, I haven't hurt myself or Sara, and if I do survive, I would not be the man in the dream. Do you see, logically?"

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Maia nods "Yes I do." Maia sighs. "You know until Sara mentioned the body farm and until I talked to you yesterday. I managed to keep her on the edges of my mind." Maia frowns. "I can't do that now. Its not your fault so please don't think that. She had to get in somehow, the more I care about her the harder it is to keep her out you know." Maia stares at her tissue. "Have you told her, about the dreams I mean?"

((OOC: I think that was one of the best episodes of all time on the CSI!!))

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"No!" Grissom shouts a bit. "No, you need to understand my relationship with Sara. We don't... we're not... most of what she knows about me she learned from speaking with my mother. I was never open, with her. One of many mistakes. Are you going to tell her?"

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Maia jumps at Grissom's rejection. "It- its not my place to tell her." Maia follows Grissom with her eyes. " However I will not lie to her Grissom, your relationship with Sara works off of noncommunication, mine does not. But no I will not go out of my way to inform her."

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"My relationship doesn't work with Sara, period. I've been trying to change, but some things are beyond repair.

Don't lie to her. Do whatever you wish. I made the decision to tell you, I can face the consequences."

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Maia watches him while he is talking and for the first time she feel pity for Grissom.

"I am glad that you told me. I'm not going to leave here and go running to tell Sara everything we talked about. I don't even think she knows we have talked. She most certainly does not know that I dreamed about her being killed last night or about her body wasting away in a farm somewhere." Maia shakes her head. "No I don't run and tell her anything. I tell her when she asks me."

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"You know, Sara never asked me. About a lot of things. Be careful with that, if you don't want to upset her. She's angry I kept so many things from her, but for some reason I'll never understand she never questioned me about my hearing, or my past, or how I really felt about her. She believes in lying by omission, even if we have different definitions thereof."

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Maia bites her lips and thinks back on various conversations with Sara.

"She talks.. more then I do. I listen to her. I told her, about my parents dying. She knows that I see things. She talks more then I do." Maia nods reassuring herself.

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"That's good, I'm glad you both have someone to talk to," Grissom shifts around, he's never talked this much to someone on this personal of a level, ever. "It's important... for her. I think."

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Maia smiles and nods. "I do to. W- we care about each other. I've never cared about someone as much as I care for her." Maia hesitates worried what she is saying will cause Grissom pain.