ext_29408 ([identity profile] wraithbaitjohn.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] fandomhighdorms2006-01-21 07:33 am
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Saturday Morning - Gym

Carefully sneaking out of the room, so as not to wake Han, Shep heads down for the gym.

He hasn't had a chance to check the weather, but it looks cloudy and gray and like it just possibly may rain on him if he actually goes running, so he stretches and then heads for a treadmill.

[ooc: LJ seems to be speaking to me again... come bother Shep or use the gym for... whatever. :)]
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[identity profile] wraithbaitjohn.livejournal.com 2006-01-21 05:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Shep continued pounding his head into the punching bag. "Aw Lana..." He has no idea how to fix this. "If you screwed up anything, it was the timing. That was all. I mean, to land something like that on a guy as he's walking out the door... And, you know... we've talked about this. Are you sure you want your first time to be with a jackass like me? I'm obviously not very good at getting what you're telling me... I don't want to... I don't know... " He sighs, leaning on the bag. "I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't want someone so clueless ever near you again. You tease me over the stupid act... but sometimes I'm just that stupid."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2006-01-21 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
She hesitates then reaches out to him, this time touching his shoulder, then his face until he looks at her. "There's a lot of things I'm not sure about, but this isn't one of them. Believe me, I've been thinking about this a lot. About what I want and what it means and what my expectations are and whether they're reasonable. And I've decided a lot of things."

She bites her lip, "Look, this is probably going to come out wrong or mixed up, but just let me say it and then I can fix it or you can ask me to explain or whatever. I'm 17. A high school sophomore. I have a huge amount of my life ahead of me and there's no way to know what the future holds. It's way too early for me to be making decisions about forever or even really long term. All I can do is make decisions about what I want to do now and what's right for me right now.

And I'm ready for this. And it's what I want. And you're the person I want to experience it with. I trust you. I know you'll make it good for me - incredible, if the other stuff we've done is anything to go by. I told you before that I wanted my first time to be special - that it be more than some casual thing. With you, I think it will be. I care about you a great deal. I guess I really love you in a way - and before you freak, I'm not talking about *in* love, together forever, expect you to propose kind of love.

It's... like... We have this incredible friendship. It's real and sincere and deep. You're someone I can see being friends with all my life regardless of where we end up or who we end up with - that's not what's important. But there's this deep connection there - like we've known each other forever. You'd be there for me if I ever needed you and I'd be there for you.

And that's the kind of person I want my first time to be with. So... There you have it." She looks incredibly nervous, but also determined.

[identity profile] wraithbaitjohn.livejournal.com 2006-01-21 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
He listens to Lana's speech and then debates finding something harder to hit his head against. "Wow." Not sure what to say in the face of that kind of honesty and openness, he just reaches down and grabs her hand. "Guess we've kind of had a few mixed signals going, huh?" And they're standing in the middle of the gym and he isn't sure what comes next. It's almost like they should just get right to it... but they've learned their lesson about public nudity. And they weren't even doing anything at that point.

He cocks his head. "Why do I feel like I should be penciling in 'sex with Lana' in my calander now?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2006-01-21 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Lana holds onto his hand tightly. "I guess we have." She doesn't know quite what to do either. She'd been thinking about this for so long, but really had never pictured having this particular conversation in the middle of the gym where anyone could walk in at any moment. Part of her would like to just drag him upstairs, but another part is really enjoying just having this quiet moment with him.

She grins at his next comment, "Maybe you should be. Though I think I'd kind of prefer ink to pencil, if you don't mind. And aren't you the one who always talks about how powerful a force anticipation is?"

They stand there for another moment. "Okay, this is almost as awkward as that Wednesday in your room, when we were deciding about you and Han and I?"
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