The Roof, Monday night

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So Amber was feeling a little lonely. This meant that instead of sticking to her room, she took herself up to the roof to gaze out and about and just think. About stuff. There was so much on her mind she could hardly focus on one thing in particular, but whatever. Due justice was given each thought no matter how little or big.

She dug out a pack of cigarettes from her back pocket and held them in her hand, thinking about lighting one. Really, it was such a bad habit and one she really didn't want to start. There was such a thing as an occassional smoker. Right?

[The roof is public, so the post is open, yep!]

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Viki blinked into being on the roof and sighed in relief. "Oh, hello," she said easily. "Have you seen any of the ankle biters up here?"

Vicious circles, ankle biters, it was close enough.

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Surprised, Amber looked over, frowned. "Were you here before? I didn't notice... and no. I haven't seen any yet." Thank goodness.

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"Oh no," Viki assured her. "I just arrived. There are ankle biters about and so, I thought, perhaps the roof would be a good place to avoid them as I do like having socks intact for more than a few minutes at a time and I cannot imagine ankle biters caring for a place so high up."

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"Oh," murmured Amber, still frowning. She never heard her arrive. No footsteps or anything. "Ankle biters should so not come up here. This is a place for heavy thinking. Ankle biters hardly think, they just act." Or so she was thinking.

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Teleportation was sneaky like that! Though Viki didn't mean to be sneaky.

"Are you doing heavy thinking?" she wondered. "I should have also thought that a roof, besides that, was good for staring at the stars. Neither of which, I'd imagine, the biters are much good at. I am not sure that they have eyes, though it's possible."

Or brains for that matter.

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"A little," admitted Amber. "But you are right; it is very good for looking at the stars. But when you're looking, you're usually thinking. Viki, right?" She remembered meeting her before.

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"That's right, and you're Amber," she said cheerfully, just in case the other girl had forgotten. "I teleported you once, I believe. And the stars, I've never understood why they encourage thinking, but they do. Never even about cheerful things most of the time. I wonder if it's because they're surrounded by black?"

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"Mhm," she grinned. From one bed to the next. But then her smile fell as she looked up. "No. Not cheerful at all. At least for me tonight, Viki."

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"Too much time looking at the black," Viki decided wisely. "Maybe you should look at the stars instead."

This was Viki trying to be helpful.

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"They do sparkle prettily, don't they?" she responded quietly.

"Have you only come to the roof to get away from the ankle biters?"

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Viki glanced sidelong at her.

For a long moment.

"Most people," she said, still lightly, but slightly more subdued. "Would say I do not think at all."

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Amber looked back. "I wonder why people would say such a thing. To live is to think."

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"Some would say, rather, that living is to breathe," she noted. "Though I shouldn't say which I think is right because I can see the sides of both. But people do not care for the way my thoughts tumble out, in circles, and I find it hard to mind because if they mind that is their right, but the way I think is mine. I'm not going to change it to make other people more comfortable."

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"Insightful words, Viki," Amber replied in a quiet tone. "Ones which I believe myself. I am who I am, people like me for that or they don't like me," she shrugged, thinking of one in particular.

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That got a bit of a grin.

"People think what they want," she said. "I've found I'd rather not lie just to prolong the whole affair as either way it'll eventually make itself clear. But it does make people uncomfortable."

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"Then I would say it is their loss for not thinking outside their own little box. Everyone is different. I appreciate that."

It was just that, sometimes you tried too hard to make someone like you even if you knew it just wasn't going to happen. What was that about?

Amber shook her head, looked at the pack of cigarettes in her hand. "Do you smoke, Viki?"

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"I've never tried," she admitted, taking a moment to glance up at the stars. "The smoking, I mean. The differences rather happen without trying."

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"You're welcome to try mine, if you want. I don't think I want them anymore."

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"I shouldn't think I need to try, really, if I haven't already," Viki said, glancing at her. "Though maybe the ankle-biters would like them? If you are determined to get rid of them, I mean."

She considered it. "Did you ever really want them? Or was it just something to do? If you don't mind me asking, of course, but it is interesting."

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"I don't want them," she repeated. "They're not good for you. Everyone I love smokes. I don't want to take up the habit. But no, I never really wanted them. I just... did it." If she dug hard enough she'd realize it had first been done to draw attention, but that hardly mattered anymore.

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"I wouldn't care for them," Viki said with a shrug. "But I will take them and get rid of them if you'd like."

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Amber reached out, handing them over. "I don't think you would either."

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Viki took them, tucking them into a pocket, and had to grin a bit at that.

"They are not, I suppose, me at all," Viki smiled a bit. "They'll be well disposed of, I assure you."

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"They're cheap; not sure who'd want them but dispose of them however you like," she told her, smiling a bit before she gazed back up at the stars.

"Do you have a boyfriend, Viki?" she asked, changing the subject.

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She nodded, and didn't even blink at the subject change.

"I don't," Viki admitted. "Though, really, I have not looked. I never stay in one place long and that seems rather unfair to all involved to get overly attached."