Fourth Floor common room, Wednesday evening

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Dean was ensconced in front of the tv, plenty of unhealthy snacks within easy reach. On the tv was something with a lot of car chases and explosions. Perfect for mindless viewing.


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Dean stared at him for a moment. "You're going to be all touchy and feely about this sort of thing aren't you?" he asked, but not unkindly.

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"Every single time I do it? Probably not. But my first time?" Sam shrugged. "I know, you think I'm being an idiot."

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"No I don't," Dean said quickly.

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Sam looked back up at him. "Really?"

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"Really. Just because I went the one night stand route doesn't mean I think you have to," Dean said. "Well, maybe if we were still travelling with Dad where that's pretty much all there's a chance for, but... it's different here."

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"It is different here," Sam agreed. "I mean, I don't know if I'll be having sex before Dad decides to pull us out, but...how come you're always teasing me about it then?"

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"You mean besides the fact that I'm your brother and it's my job to tease you?"

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Sam rolled his eyes and laughed in spite of himself. "Besides that, yes. I know it shouldn't, but the thought of having sex just kind of freaks me out. I'm worried I'll suck at it the first time and then never have any sex again."

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"Y'know they don't actually make you take a vow of celibacy if you don't get it right your first time," Dean told him, only half joking. "And see, that's why I keep bringing the subject up and tease you about it. Because yeah, sex can be big and important and full of meaning and all that, but it's also supposed to be fun. You keep forgetting that last part and tying yourself up in knots over the rest."

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"Is it too much to ask for it to be fun and mean something?" Sam sighed lightly. "I know I shouldn't get as worked up as I do. I guess it doesn't help when it seems like everyone else is having sex except for me."

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"Your first time will mean something because it's your first time," Dean told him. "If you concentrate on having fun and making sure your partner is having fun, the meaning will take care of itself. And even one night stands can mean something. And you're not the only one not having sex. It probably just seems that way because you were in Seahorse." He grinned and winked at his brother.

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Sam nodded seriously. "If it wasn't for you, I definitely wouldn't have belonged in Seahorse. And how can you say that one night stands mean something? I mean, it clearly can't matter than much if you only do it with the person once."

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Dean raised an eyebrow. "You think my first time didn't matter that much or mean anything?"

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"Well, no. I mean, I do think it mattered," Sam said, backtracking as best he could. "That's different, because like you said, your first time always means something..."

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"Was that the sound of you getting my point?" Dean asked wryly.

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Sam smirked. "That was the sound of me agreeing that not all one night stands are meaningless. But think about it, which was better - your first time, or being with Dawn?"

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"That's not a fair question," Dean protested.

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"That's totally a fair question," Sam argued. "And now you can see my point. I'm sure your first time was fun and good and you totally blew the girl away. But if I can wait until someone like Dawn comes along..." He trailed off, shrugging.

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"It's not a fair question because it's not fair to compare lovers," Dean explained. "You start doing that, you're really going to get in trouble. You don't go into it rating your partner against everybody else you've slept with -- one night stand or deep and meaningful relationship. You just enjoy each experience and each relationship however long its been for what it is."

He looked at Sam assessingly, hearing what his brother was saying between the words. "You still like Dawn, don't you."

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"Maybe you can think like that, but I don't know if I can. And, first times aside, I still think most one night stands are kind of like using the person just for sex."

Sam managed to hold his gaze and not glance away when Dean looked at him. "That's not at all what I said."

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"It's not using if you both want the same thing," Dean argued. He returned Sammy's gaze steadily. "Maybe not with words, but that's what you said."

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"No, I said someone like Dawn. I was just using her as an example, for you," Sam protested.

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"You haven't actually denied it though," Dean pointed out.

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"Yes I did," Sam replied, nearly whining, and now he wasn't looking at Dean anymore. "I told you that wasn't what I meant, because I don't still like her. I mean, I like her as a friend and a roommate, but that's it."

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"You never could look at me when you lie," Dean observed.