roof | early evening | thursday | august 27

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

Alex was finding himself more attracted to the roof than the deck lately, which was a change from earlier in the summer. He couldn't really pinpoint why save for the fact that he liked smoking on the roof. Today was no different. He'd lit up as soon as he'd pushed onto the roof and was halfway done before he'd even sat down on the ledge.

Things felt slow lately, like they were moving in slow motion and it was making him itchy. He really didn't want to think of it as bad omens considering he still was trying to not think about that other Fandom but those thoughts crept in more likely than not.

He shook his head at himself and made his mind go blank. Easier to deal with.

[i'm bored and it's about to storm like hell. so, natch, this is open!]

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[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"Unless you really let yourself go, I think you'll be fine," he said, dropping his chin to his chest and taking a few more deep breaths.

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

She snorted, letting her hand stroke lightly down his arm before dropping it, and she was never, ever talking about this again to anyone who didn't already know.

"So yeah," she said, trying for lightness. "Now you know my life story."

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"I guess so," he said, finally straightening up and dropping his head back to look up at the sky. "Not...what I expected, honestly."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

Rose pushed up to sit on the wall again, close enough to face him. "What'd you expect?"

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"Not that," he said, sticking with the staring at his shoes for the moment. "I don't know, Rose. I'm from fucking Iowa."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"And I'm still from two states over," she pointed out, chewing on her lip as she studied her hands.

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"In this case, I think it's really two different worlds," he said and finally looked back at her. Thankfully, he...didn't see anything different even with all those revelations.

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Maybe," Rose said with a shrug. It wasn't like any of the humans knew about St. Vlad's and the rest of it. "Probably, yeah, but who knows."

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"And now you're back here," he said, trying to move past the whole vampire thing. "Haven of weird and insane things."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Apparently? I have an attitude problem," Rose said, tossing her head. "Who'd've guessed, right?"

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"How surprising," he said dryly. "I couldn't tell that at all. Sorry...that you had to come back."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

She shrugged. "I wanted to." She shot him a quick smile. "I didn't really want to want to, but - I'd rather be here most of the time."

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"Got your wish," he said, shrugging a shoulder. "What'll you do now?"

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Pass my goddamn trials in the spring," Rose said. She shrugged. "What'll you do now?"

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"I don't know." He shrugged again. "I don't have anything to look forward to like you do."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Why not?" she asked, cocking her head to watch him.

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"Because." It was all he could get out while he wrestled with the question of actually wanting to tell someone about why he didn't plan things past the next day and why he probably never would. "Spontaneity is cool."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"You don't sound all that excited about it," Rose pointed out. "Anyway, it's the person that's cool. Not what he does."

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"I ever sound excited about anything?" he wondered, making a face.

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Oh yeah," she smirked. "Sometimes you sound downright gleeful."

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"I don't plan things," he told her simply. "There's always something that comes along to destroy them. Why bother?"

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

Rose opened her mouth then shut it again. "Cause there's no other way to go anywhere."

So said the girl whose entire life plan was to protect Lissa until she got killed doing it.

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"Not everyone plans like you do," he pointed out, leaning against the wall beside her. "I don't like making plans."

[guardianborn.livejournal.com]

"Because they get destroyed?" she asked, surprisingly not flippantly at all as she turned to look at him.

[fratboybitch.livejournal.com]

"It's a safeguard," he said and shrugged. "I don't have the luxury of a bodyguard."